fuck me man

Looking at that singular drawing for last year actually kills me like, the hell was I doing that was so important I couldn't sit down and draw. I can't even say "oh i gotta get on that, oh I gotta really set a goal for this year" because I'll just blow it off like I have before.

what I actually have to do is actually hold myself to the schedules I try to set. But good luck to me as soon as I try to do that I guess

Despite my background and interests, I don't actually watch movies all that often, let alone go to the theater to do so. Granted, it used to be because going to the movies is expensive when you don't have any money, but that's beside the point. I've seen more movies in the last month than I have in entire years, and it got me thinking about something that really jaded me back when I was in school.

It's not exactly news that movies are a business, and as a result, they have to make money. That itself is fine. What isn't fine is when it feels like a movie didn't get the fair shake it deserved, whether it was because there was no advertising for it (unrelated note, but apparently a Bob Ross movie came out a few weeks ago), or the executives in charge of planning the release bury it next to movies that are 100% going to be hits. In this case, John Wick 4 and the Mario movie. Now don't get me wrong, I'm a huge John Wick fan, and I was pleasantly surprised that Mario didn't have anything that had long been prophesized would make the movie embarrassing or painful (insert kesha song here).

Releasing directly between both of those was the Dungeons and Dragons movie. I was going to see it no matter what because I'm big into TTRPGs, dnd included. And I was actually really impressed with it! It was written well, had enough details here and there for turbonerds like me to soy over, had practical effects which are a huge thing for me in this world of overdone CGI, and the humor wasn't the cringeworthy marvel shit I've come to expect from most things; it was FUN.

I haven't looked at the numbers, but based on the amount of people in the theater, and the amount of people I know who actually went and saw it, it feels like it might not have done well, because again, it was buried in between two guaranteed blockbuster hits. I really hope I'm wrong, because I think another movie like that would be great.

Then tonight, I saw Renfield, which I saw a trailer for and thought "hey that might be fun." And it was. It was more than fun. It hit every single checkmark to please my emo ass, but in a way that felt completely natural, and not like someone was just going down the list saying "okay what do these losers like, uhhhh vampires, gore, guns, yeah that's fine." It felt like it was written by someone who wanted to be writing it, it felt like someone who was also sick of manufactured quirkiness, so they strayed far away from it and embraced the almost B-movie it was likely inspired by. Same thing as dnd though, the theater was damn near empty for a movie that came out last week. Now sure, it's not a weekend and most people don't go to the theater in the middle of the week, it's possible I'm making something out of nothing, but considering the critic scores, it's worrying. Now anyone who takes "professional movie critics" seriously are another topic entirely, but as much as I like to point and laugh at it, unfortunately that's a really big number of moviegoers. And again, buried right after the release of another blockbuster, so a lot of people might not want to go to the theater more than once in a week or so. I know people who only go to one movie a month, so it's not hard to imagine others being the same.

You know what happens when movies don't make a profit? Movies like it don't get made again. Which, I will say one shining beacon of hope comes from the fact that superhero movies aren't just printing money like they were a few years ago, they actually have to try to get people to see them, again (ignoring marvel, obviously).

Maybe I'm worrying over nothing. Maybe I'm just finding some renewed love of an old passion. Maybe its a bunch of different things. But fuck man, I hate to see good things go unrewarded.

Damn I really haven't posted something since the new year. I'd like to say that it's just been because I'm lazy, but nah it's entirely because of how busy I was at work for the entirety of January, and how busy I was every single weekend in February. Even now I'm starting March strong by going out of town again lmfao.

I haven't even been really posting much on the forums or twitter for that matter either, so it isn't even like I've had time to goof off. It's been pretty exhausting all things considered, even though I've been doing really fun (and expensive ._. ) things.

So, maybe new stuff in March?

Love this time of year, but at the same time, I know that I'll be happy to get back to uploading somewhat regularly, and maybe even seeing the release of SLAG.

Every time I think I'm hitting an easy week at work, it's already too late. Hopefully after Christmas I'm not gonna be so busy, because right now I have like 3 different projects going, one of which is finally gonna be the return of a new longform comic I talked about on twitter a while back. Others are just larger art pieces which don't really have any time that I need them done by, but still, I hate having em hanging over my head.

For now, have a sketch I was doing, that's completely unrelated to anything I'm supposed to be working on.